You know the kind of day you knew would come but you didn’t really prepare for exactly. The past 16 months have been up and down I thought by now I would be able to quit my job, make some good income and just be cool with life. But I messed up tried to charge my way up the ladder didn’t follow the systems set before me jumped around all over the place and in the end I hurt my wife’s heart.
I thought I could make it all back, I convinced myself that I could learn my way out of the hole I was digging, but it was just me tricking myself nothing more. I thought I understood traffic, offer people something they want for free and they will be on your side, that works right well yes and no it works but takes time.
I tried ranking videos on youtube some worked some didn’t I finally reached 12 subscribers things didn’t pan out I just kept digging this hole thinking I could eventually make stairs and get out but that didn’t happen.
Honestly I have no one to blame but myself and now Im just broken, honestly I try and stay as positive as possible but tonight is just pushing me to the edge. My lead generation is crap right now I just got a lot of weight on my shoulders I don’t know what to do next its crazy how you trick yourself I know theres a way out I just don’t know how right now.
Understand this has nothing to do with blaming anyone except myself, I just don’t know where to turn next, I’m at that imaginary crossroad I gotta turn left and keep grinding, or turn right and drop it all right now cut my losses and whimper away licking my wounds like a hurt puppy.
People say there comes a point where you have to choose, you must make a choice… i am there the funny thing is it feels like I almost there at cracking the code, but i am at the point now where I keep asking how long can you keep this up?
Is this really going to work out? Thanks for listening.